Moving Forward.
I’ve still not heard back from Arthur, that is… he’s not returned my call from Wednesday night and it’s now (technically) Saturday morning. This doesn’t particularly bode well.
In an effort to calm myself about it I was speaking with Matthew I theorized that he could be waiting for a day off to call me… so as to not be rushed by calling me prior to work, while at work, or when tired afterwork.
In all honesty I find that theory to be quite… pathetic, but… it has to work for me for now. I do know that he’s busy in respect to working quite a bit, and I also know that he has two weeks off starting at the beginning of November running until the day prior to my birthday.
I’m hoping, in a mild sort of way, that provided he’s not decided to forget of my existance intentionally, that we’d be able to spend a decent amount of time with each other during that time frame.
I also know from experience that things tend to move slowly with him; especially if judging from how we did meet online sometime in August and we’ve just now, as of Tuesday, met each other in person. There have been large gaps in contact as well.
I was hoping that once we had actually met those sorts of gaps would diminish. Oddly enough this seems to be rather similar to the process of meeting Matthew, and while he has become an impressive friend, I’m looking for much more from a relationship with Arthur.
I suppose I’m a little less neurotic about the situation now, a little more calm, but the nervousness is mostly being replaced by utter disappointment… I guess we’ll see.
Sam says that a three week waiting period isn’t out of the question, to which I find, well, insane. I wouldn’t tolerate a phone call being unreturned for that long.
There is a possibility that some sort of technological difficulty has come between us… though that is extremely unlikely. Yesterday when Matthew would call my phone immediately hung up on him with a message of “network failure” …but the phone still did ring. There have been instances where I’ve received voicemails because my phone didn’t ring, and I didn’t receive any notification of the voicemails… of course I know this isn’t the case for me at the moment… but perhaps it could be for him. All of this theory is of course just that, and really, it’s (like I said) pathetic for me to even be concerned about, I guess.
He also could be testing me to see just how clingy I could be… I remember now him making several comments about people being too clingy, interspersed with our conversations about people wanting to move ahead things much too quickly. I don’t know… if I don’t hear from him sometime this weekend I think giving him another call Monday or Tuesday wouldn’t be out of the range of normalcy… waiting a week before trying to call again isn’t particularly clingy. It would be much to my preference for him to call me though, of course.
