Purling, Not Smoking.
I still cannot manage to take the recommended minimum number of Commit lozenges, no matter how hard I try. Well, I’m sure I could do it, but I’d have one in my mouth to the point so consistently of not being able to eat or drink… at all. I’m somewhat struggling with even taking them two hours apart, I’d much rather wait longer. I don’t know if I’m on some sort of ‘I can quit faster, I have great willpower’ thing or what, but… I’m having very few cravings, I just don’t feel the need for a 4mg boost of nicotine.
I’m going to modify the plan, see if it’ll work better for me if I just sort of speed up the process; I simply cannot imagine taking these things for twelve weeks.
In related news, Friday the 20th is my mom’s quit date. She started on the lozenges as I did, I believe she’s also having the same sort of difficulty in taking them as often as is indicated; particularly because they seem to take an hour and a half to dissolve for her. Quite frankly, I think they’re so incredibly inconvenient… but, I don’t want to smoke either.
Example being, I could go for a hit of nicotine right now, but I really want to be in bed… should have been in bed quite a while ago. If I take a lozenge now I’ll be up for another hour, plus my blood pressure and heart rate will all be elevated by the slam of nicotine… not exactly “mood for sleepy” body activity.
Either way, today is my day six without a single puff on a cigarette.
I also finally learned how to make the purl stitch in knitting. It took me a very long time, four hours or so, to finally get the hang of it. I believe I was doing instead of a ‘standard’ continental purl, a combined purl. I kept having all of my purl stitches twisted, but never fear it eventually came to me. Egh, the hand manuevers for purling… don’t much like it.
I bought some cheap ($1.47 for 100g) bulky weight yarn to learn/practice with, I’m not sure if my stitch weirdness is a result of the cheap yarn, or just sloppy tension when switching back and forth between knit and purl. I’m doing this k3 p3 ribbed pattern at the moment, and well, it just looks a little wonky in contrast to when I’m doing garter with just knit stitches.
The state of Maryland rubs salt in the wound of the speeding ticket… I haven’t been able to get a hold of a human being at the court office at all, and their ‘fancy’ IVR, VRU, or whatever you want to call their ‘takes the place of a human’ answering machine doesn’t seem to work for shit. It gives no real options, anytime I choose anything it sends me to an operator, but instead I get a message saying nobody is available and then it hangs up on me! To be able to pay that ticket there is going to need to be a miracle of some kind; short of a miracle I wouldn’t mind my clients actually paying me in a timely manner — if all those past due invoices would get paid this week, well… I’d have the money for the ticket.
It’s amazing, I’m incredibly stressed, and I’m still not smoking. I’m still very much in a ‘leave me alone’ mood when it comes to most everyone though, which has been the case for the majority of January. I realized that I’ve become too lax when it comes to making it clear what I will and will not tolerate, I need to clear that up.
