i’m still awake at 9am… i’m sure it has something to do with starting my new meds…
so, i’m looking at dave’s webcam… it just strikes me, i know i’m never going to be romantically involved with him…. …but i kinda hope that someday i may find a boy as beautiful as he is, or perhaps as he has the ability to be. I love him so incredibly much, and it so concerns me when he tells me of some of the things that he’s done, or is about to do, etc… because i’m so relatively helpless to do anything about it.
i miss adam, he’s not been online much, and when he has been we’ve rarely talked… …i dunno, i suppose he’s busy… i think about him though, i suppose pretty often… I never did really find out what happened with him and that guy he was so excited to tell me about… …seeing that he and i haven’t talked much, that sort of leads me to believe that things are going pretty well for the two of them…. ….i have no choice other than to be happy.