ugh computers
i, for rarely i do, needed to get away from my computer, was about to start yanking out bits and pieces and hurling them about. My harddrive was doing a very dasterdly thing lastnight and continued on today.. not really sure what was causing it other than the fact that it’s a samsung p.o.s. winpuke2k is a nice example of what i’m talking about. I subsequently formated the drive and converting it to ntfs from fat 32. …still having some problems… but i think they may be ebbing, at least i hope so… i think the data i was trying to put onto it that i’d taken off previously, just in case, is corrupted or otherwise doesn’t like it… i’m going to be sure to not store anything of worth on my d: drive now, at least until i can replace it with a better, ie, not samsung harddrive… since this is a replacement for one that caught on fire… yes, boys and girls, the harddrives had smoke and flames comig out of it.
in my escape from my computer i went down to frederick, spent some time with my friends seryozha and karen… good ol’ cosmopolitans, hehe. *in moderation of course*
I’d also attempted to phone lewis to at least give him a tiny bit of notice about me getting my book back from him, you know, my 80 dollar photoshop bible… but i think i may just need to resort to a bit more of an agressive manuever or something… i’m getting that book back!
hmm.. i’m really hoping that all has been resolved now… dunno for sure though of course.. eeeeeep! oh, yeah, i’m talking about my computer… d’oh… …i’m quite happy having such a limited group of people on my contact lists, though i suppose i ought to add a few back on one of these days…
i was thinking tonight, i guess on my way to or from frederick, about the three boys that i’ve truly loved/been in love with, and i guess those are also the three that i feel have done the best with reciprocating that love, but… not enough, that’s why i don’t talk to them anymore i suppose… then there is of course the first love… stupid boy who proclaims his heterosexuality after finding god, decides to marry a lesbian who had a similar divine epiphany, and of course have a child… it’s all a little on the vomitous side really… …these experiences really have me turned off to the idea… the idea being involved with a boy in any manner beyond simple talking and such… it’s just a bit too sickening… and… i mena, why bother when it seems to result in such shitty circumstances… …a lot of which seems to involve me being or otherwised feeling used in the process… so i give up! not that i haven’t given up a long time ago, i’m just kind of restating the fact, since it seems that i need to remind myself why i’m not involved with those people anymore… …so i don’t get the idea i ought to get involved with anyone new… because it’s highly unlikely, unlikely enough to not bother.
anyway… i suppose i’m going to head to bed, since it’s 4am… i’m gonna traverse downstairs first and see if i can get the network up for internet, versus dialout… err… well… anyway… *sigh*
i need a new keyboard, cdrom (dvd) and a new harddrive i guess… oh yeah… and a new second video card… what a list! …hmm… i need money iguess… work? i mean real work? i dunno… i’m too likely to snap and go utterly balistic on some stupid ass monkey fuck in the process.
oh yeah, i know i said i was going… …but i just wanted to enter in my disgust for the planning of coldwar part 2, thanks to our lovely president g.w.b. his daddy ends the coldwar, so sonnyboy starts it up again?! guh… we don’t need to start that idiotic starwars program… it’ll just cause escalation of military buildup, and it’s totally uneeded.