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Monday evening I was preparing the package to send to davey, in which the dinotopia svcds were being sent. Well, he had what I would consider a bad day, and I just wanted to do something nice… similar to sending him the little hallmark card. It just didn’t seem ‘right’ to send only the svcds. I got my brother to take me out to walmart around midnight and drug him across the store several times. I wanted to get something small and romantic ,cute, etc, for davey, small in size so it would fit in the box itself too, lol. I was looking through the candle section, and there was this solitary little candle in a tin. Of course it was some bizzare scent, but I carried it with me anyway. I found some little stickers in which you could write things on, and then grabbed some really cute little silk roses, mini roses. After talking to a string of three walmart employees they finally poitned me to where they thought the candle was from. Sure enough, they were right. So I grabbed one for davey. So, I wrote out some things on the little stickers, stuck them onto the candle, and put the candle, roses, and not in the box with the dinotopia scvds, and proceeded to priority mail them Tuesday morning to davey. ;-D

He loves them. YAY!

Hmm…

Drunken ex’s calling me tonight… with professions of love and other random nonsense…

I almost find it …… no, I do find it disturbing that I have an ex that calls me more often than the person I truly would like to be with… ….I just accept it though. :-/

I’m realizing that I should right down things, like specific dates, because I’m not sure exactly when davey leaves to go to eme’s prom, oops.

I found something that I want to get… but I don’t know how much it is… and I don’t know how appropriate it would be to get either… and… I’m actually censoring myself on that… shame on me. I’m so very cynical… but for some reason that coexists with unbridled optomism as well…. I suppose it’s all about the extremes… either I go through thinking that things will be completely perfect, or I think everything will go straight to hell, lol. I think perhaps that comes with a bit of impatience… at least, what I’m referring to… my wishful thinking, a true desire regardless of whatever happens.

May we dare to dream dreams not yet dreamt. May we find constant reward and challenge as we pursue the ongoing adventure of learning who we are and where we want to go. May we always have a special sense of our mission in life together, and may we never tire of the endless possibilities of exploring our shared existence.

Blargh… I’ve been babysitting the webserver all night and day, basically, just making sure that everything is and will stay okay with it after the hiccups recently.

I really wish I could give davey a real hug right now.

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I was reading and replying to posts on dslreports.com; and suddenly this post with 11 pages popped onto my forum view (fave forums) and it was basically about gay people. The amount of hate, bigotry, and ignorance shown in that thread is unsurpassed by anything else I’ve seen in my life of 23 years. I finally decided, after seeing a few others who weren’t hateful, that I would give some perspective myself.

And I should add… I’ll be DAMNED if someone tries to stop me and davey from showing affection towards one another. I love him, completely, and I will not allow someone’s bigoted mentality to effect how I behave with him. I also won’t allow societal restrictions to tell me that I can’t have a loving union with him, if he were to accept.