I’m gay.

Wednesday, 29th May, 2002 :: 21:58 EDT - Journal

I’d suspect quite a few others reading this are as well.

There’s certainly no “class” I took, or “rule book” I was given, to “train” me to be gay. I was not abused in any way when I was younger, it was completely natural, I just always preferred another man as opposed to a woman.

Have those who are sickened by two men kissing each other in public, or holding one another’s hand, ever considered how your heterosexual “flamboyance” might be perceived? All I see, everywhere, are heterosexuals flaunting their “straightness” it’s gets to be rather old after awhile.

My point with that above… before you start spouting off about those damn “fags” … why don’t you consider how YOUR BEHAVIOUR appears first?

I’m not going to throw a fit when I see some overt display of heterosexuality in public, so you best not spaz out if you happen to see me kissing my boyfriend at the museum, etc. Again, I have to deal with heterosexuals fawning upon one another, you’ll have to deal with men who would decide to show affection. I don’t support the double standard in which heterosexuals can do whatever they’d like together in public, but I’m supposed to “keep it at home” - that’s silly.

You cannot use the extremes of any society to judge that society.

Gay pride parades, in my opinion are disgusting; and I’d never find myself attending one. Those people are very atypical of your average gay or lesbian. They have every right, living in the United States, to do what they want to do. If you don’t like it, as I don’t, you just have to deal with it.

Oh, and I so wish I’d be making money for how many times the word “lifestyle” has been used here. Being gay isn’t a “lifestyle”. I can see people ignorantly confusing the “club lifestyle” that a small percentage of gay people partipate in, and viewing that as how everyone behaves. This is simply not true.

You want to know what lifestyle I have? The office guy, telecomuting, what have you, you know, typical grey collar sort of person. There’s nothing at all there that is different from probably a vast majority of others here. You want to know that ONE difference? At the end of the day, my loved one is a guy. WHOOOPIE! Deal with it…

Those who scream about “special rights” are sadly uninformed. It’s all about being afforded the same rights under the law that any heterosexual man would be given. I don’t want any special treatment. I want to be able to have a legally binding commitment, just as heterosexuals would. I want to be able to have the legal right to plan my loved ones funeral if need be (obviously this would be very far into the future), the legal right to make medical decisions as heterosexuals would have….

Imagine, you love someone greatly, and there’s an auto accident. The hospital REFUSES to allow you to see your loved one, because “legally” you are not family. You see, without the genders and the sexuality involved, it’s an awful situation.

I want to be able to extend my health insurance to my “spouse” just as a heterosexual man would be able to do with his wife.

And, sure, I’d like to have the tax relief that married individuals have too.

There’s nothing at all special there. It’s just receiving the SAME rights that heterosexuals have.

And if I could take a pill to magically make me straight, would I take it?

No.

If I was given a choice at birth, or before puberty, whatever, I would have chosen to be heterosexual; provided I would be aware of just how many people HATE me JUST because of who I choose to love.

I’m who I am because of all the bullshit bigotted straight people have put me through. I’m proud of myself for making it this long. I’m proud of who I have become too.

The rate of suicide is so very much higher amongst gay youth, and that’s because their parents, friends, and society in general make them feel so very awful about themselves, they simply cannot bare to live any longer.

You can tout various religious things, bandy about morality, it doesn’t much matter really. If someone is gay, they just ARE. They didn’t do anything special, make any choices, they just are that way.

There are disgusting gay people, there are disgusting straight people. Only problem is, heterosexuals often can’t tell the difference between your average gay person and average straight person. It’s only the ones out on the extremes do you notice. You want to know something else? Us, “average” gay guys don’t really appreciate those fringe elements either. They bring exactly the kind of bigotry that has been shown here.

I was kind of hoping that someone else here that is gay would have posted… if they did make reference to it I’ve certainly missed the post.

And about bigotry. It is okay to be a bigot. It’s not okay to use that bigotry to interfere in anyone’s life. For those here that have been accused of being bigots… You are, just accept it, I won’t hate you anymore than I already do; in fact, if you accept that, I can at least respect you.

I really hope I’ve covered all of the points that I have set out to cover. The basic thing is, you know far more gay people than you think, you probably just don’t know they’re gay. The majority of us are JUST LIKE YOU, we just choose to love someone of our own gender. I agree not to be revolted when I see heterosexuals flaunting their straightness, can you agree to leave us alone?

wtf is this?

Tuesday, 28th May, 2002 :: 04:30 EDT - Jots

I just got an email from my msn profile, of which I’m not even aware of having….

“Im sending you a SMACK for your web site….”

I haven’t a shred of clue what that is all about, who this ecapone81@hotmail.com person is, nor even which website this person has ’sent me a SMACK’ in regards to.

So, random people, if you want to make some kind of comment, could you at least make sure it makes sense in the totally random context in which you’re making it?

midnight walmart run!

Tuesday, 28th May, 2002 :: 04:14 EDT - Sidenotes

Hehe… I was inspired to make a midnight walmart run…. I got a new chair, yay, finally I have something to sit on that doesn’t periodically fall over due to lacking two of the five wheels it is supposed to have!

I also got some candy, yummmmmy, coconut maroon thingees, and some walnut glazed peanuts (they’re called goodies for some reason)… and some ferrero raphelo’s… white coconut almond versions of ferrero rocher ;) They’re soooooo good!

I also got this great scented candle, the scent is called “Sky” ;) Hehe… and, uhm… yeah, got this rather funky fountain pen sort of thing, though one of the ink things is yellow, wtf? Yellow? Oh well, the other colours are nice!

ALso got some other more random things.. So, yay, I get to go to the post office tomorrow, send davey dinotopia, and mail a bunch of other things… i’ve been made official post office run person for tomorrow. I’m also going to the bank, lol, yay for me, huh? ;)

Having an air conditioner is a very weird experience… having a room that isn’t 90+ degrees all of the time is very very strange to me, lol. I like it though, no need to worry about davey and I dying from heat stroke, lol.

Davey has some insomnia happening… I’d love to be able to wrap my arms around him, and drift off to sleep, after giving him a nice lengthy massage, for total relaxation effects.

YAY coolness

Monday, 27th May, 2002 :: 21:24 EDT - Sidenotes, thepast

Hehe, my air conditioner has a remote control… how funny is that? :) So, now, I can have the ultimate in laziness, turning on/off/adjusting the A/C without having to move more than a finger, lol!

Oh, somehow, though I forget exactly how, I think it was in relation to me moving back to PGH next spring, davey came up. I told my parents that he’d be moving up here for a few months while we prepare for pittsburgh. My mom wasn’t too thrilled, lol… Hehe, I have some time to work on her though, mwahahaha!

Davey named the grey kitten “Toji” … I’m pretty sure the grey kitten is a a girl, though it’s still a bit hard to tell, lol…. or rather to be sure. :)

gonna be cool…

Sunday, 26th May, 2002 :: 23:32 EDT - Sidenotes, thepast

That sounds silly, but I’ve decided that I’ll be purchasing myself an air conditioner, ya know the window kind. I figure, no sense in sweltering through the warm south central PA summer when I don’t necessarily have to. I suppose part of the reason is influenced by the fact that I don’t want it to be opressively warm in here while davey is visiting, which it likely would be otherwise. That’s just a small, though critical, bonus I suppose. So, hmm… off to walmart, lol, not too bad, for about $125, should be plenty to cool off this particular room.

I don’t have a whole lot more to add, things have been rather boring lately, unfortunately. Just kind of hanging out… Actually, that was a nice little bit of today… I watched two movies, one on tv and one in mpeg. The Time Machine was in mpeg… bad me, whatever… I was rather dissapointed. I remember davey mentioning it wasn’t very good, and I have to agree. I much prefer the “classic” or “original” film version to this “eye candy extravaganza” which sort of fucked up the whole idea. Oh well, I say I wish hollywood would be a bit more interesting in responsibly reproducing the plot and care less about the visuals.

Oh, and I love davey bunches and bunches.