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So, yeah… I piddled around lastnight, talked to Adam (I’ll discuss that more in detail later), Davey came back from away for a little while… then signed off as usual. At this point I already had one drink in me and was feeling… brazen, I guess… then I had another two and a half… so I ended up being quite drunk…. it’s too easy with the green devils. I sent him an sms that said only “I miss you” and then right before going to bed I phoned him, left a voicemail, I barely remember what I said though, just that this was an alcohol inspired phone call, that I don’t know what happened between us, probably said that I love him, the usual sort of thing.

Bah… someday I guess I’ll realize that he doesn’t give a damn, that his love wasn’t real, and that unlike me, he’s able to just forget everything about us.