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You know… I’m not online at all like I used to be, and much to my surprise I rather like it. I realize that I’m missing nothing, dare I say absolutely nothing.

I’m not comfortable talking to anyone about how I feel… how I really feel that is… there are maybe two or three people that I sort of open up to, but… the majority of my online time is either working… which is something that I’ve come to dread… even though things have been “stable” over the last week… but the business has lost it’s lustre of before… it’s no longer thriving, it’s just surviving, and well… for what I’m getting paid at this point I don’t give a damn really… it’s just not enough to sit here.

Anyway… it seems like 80% of my online communications are people just bitching and complaining to me about all of the things that I could not possible care any less about… and I’m just simply realizing that I’m getting nothing out of the majority of my relationships. That is to say that they are completely unrewarding for me.

The events over the past few months have drastically changed me… I’m not sure if it’s for the better or for the worse… but the only people important to me are my family members… that includes DaVe in some twisted sort of way I guess.

I was thinking about this the other day… the only people that I really seem to care about are those that I’ve actually spent time with… I guess that’s normal, really… but all these random people that talk to me online, well, they’re just that for the most part, random people, they’re strangers… it’s just that I happen to talk with them on occasion.

Anyway, news on the homefront. Matt and I went to Lowes the other night, err, Saturday night I guess, I bought a whole bunch of paint and paint supplies, spackle, etc. Yesterday (Sunday) We painted the first & second coats of the Merlot colour in the hallway (unfortunately it will need at least one more coat, maybe a fourth… damn red and it’s horrible coverage!), and also I did some major spackle repair of some damage in the bathroom, did all kinds of nifty sanding, and… uh… then we painted that. The bathroom needs just one more coat too, damn these dark colours on light walls, lol… This will be one very interesting colour scheme when it’s finally done… very rich deep warm colours everywhere, yay! Oh, for those that care the bathroom’s colour is called “oyster shell” it’s this brownish colour, rather a really dark taupe shade.

So this morning comes more painting… whee! I’m still in pain from the dental stuff, but nothing at all like it was before Friday’s emergency visit… it’s just one of those things where there are only spurts of energy and I am just ultra grumpy as a result…. and at this point I’m really sick of the woosey (sp?) feeling the narcotics give me… and of course I won’t be able to get out and fill the vicodin prescription until probably Wednesday, and I have only two codeine tablets left… so it’s all about the rationing, heh.

Right, we have about three feet of snow at the moment… the doors won’t open, lol. This is why I made the trip out to Lowes on Saturday night… getting lots and lots of supplies for household projects… since we certainly can’t go anywhere else!