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Well, my orders for the essential oils and other various things will be arriving tomorrow, thankfully. I really should map out some sort of plan as to what exactly I’m going to be making, heh…

I really need to get it together as to what’s happening with this trip to Ohio on Thursday… DaVe has the weekend fairly well planned it seems, heh…

This is just a rambling post because I’m trying to unramble my brain. I made a bunch of stuff today though; the massage oil blend (it just needs the essential oils), bath bombs, spearmint & eucalyptus foot cream, and a sleep pillow.

My mom wants me to make a bunch of stuff for her sister too… of course she’s neglected to inform me of scents to use, lol. I guess I’ll just go with something random for the candles and… uh… vanilla for the lotion I guess.

I’ve not gone away in an extremely long time… not since I went to see Adam that last time. Thinking of everything I need to pack is somewhat mind-boggling. Not to mention the “bring me this” requests, lol… not that I mind, I just need to remember/find time to go out to get the stuff.

Oh, that nine oil soap is awesome… thick stable lather and it leaves you feeling like you’ve bathed in lotion (not greasy of course).

Hmm, yeah, and I wonder how the whole business thing went for DaVe today… I’m very eager to see him… hehe, it’s always a good sign that two people really look forward to seeing each other a week or two after they’ve spent three weeks in each other’s company non-stop.

Well, I ordered all that stuff the other day, hoping to get it today, because this company is usually pretty good about shipping and they’re next door in Ohio. Anyway, so I ordered it sunday, hoping they’d ship yesterday (Monday), and here we are Tuesday morning and the order is still “in warehouse” …argh!

Oh well… it’s just kind of putting me into a time crunch I guess. I wanted to make stuff before I went to Ohio… plus my mom did too, blah.

It’s the orange chakra, associated with willingness to feel emotions. I was just thinking about how those that hold in their emotions, how they’re feeling, can spontaneously burst into tears during massage of that area. I’m holding a lot in… again. To me, intellectually, it’s the same old shit over and over again, but it’s still not been dealt with… simply because I don’t know what to do about it. I’m haunted by all these notions and memories of sex, love, death… Of course everyday I torture myself, seemingly, because I know of all these things, I’m reminded of all these things… that are no longer the way they were… and that life goes on, but for me, I’m still. In reality though I’m not… but I think I overcompensate… and I throw myself into violently emotional situations… it’s intensely fulfilling, but also extremely depressing. There needs to be some sort of normalization.

Well, I have a lot of obsessions and I usually hold them at bay, but not today, haha. Anyway, last week I placed an order for some essential oils and such along with the stuff to make lotion. I did a very good job at ordering the absolute minimum of what I needed. I changed my philosophy today and ordered a lot of stuff that I really could do without… but have incredible value none the less. So, again, I ordered a bunch of essential oils… they really do work! Along with various other important things like bottles and jars. I guess one of the biggest things was blowing a wad of cash on the Frankincense, Myrrh, and Sandalwood EOs… they’re insanely expensive due to their rarity… but I just HAD to know what the real things smell like… since there is such a wide variation amongst the synthetic fragrances. It’s okay though, really… some people spend their money on going to movies or buying cds, or… otherwise *cough* …I buy rare essential oils, hahaha.

To the people that I said I would send soap and other stuff to, I haven’t forgotten, really… I’m just lazy, I admit it. I just want to wait until I have a nice little selection to send out… reduce shipping costs and such. Either that or I’m making a very paltry attempt at trying to get you guys to visit me, lol.

Oh, yeah, that Vanilla lotion I made the other day… wowie, they weren’t lying when they said the scent would intensify with time, lol. It’s the best smelling lotion… that I’ve ever smelled! ;)

Oh dear, that was just terrifying in ways that I can’t explain. You know how in the movie Vanilla Sky his little dream state gets twisted and he ends up killing the woman he loves because he thinks it’s the psycho blonde one? LOL. Anyway, so my phone rings, WHILE I’m talking to DaVe online and the CID says it’s him… so I answer of course and it sounds JUST like Stephen! And it kept sounding the him, lol… Cole’s cold/virus/infection/mucus factory really did a number on his voice, lol… that was so scary and bizzare.