Hidden Entries.
So lastnight, or technically early this morning I wrote out this really long entry… and then popped it into unpublished. I’m not really sure why, I guess because I felt like I was just repeating the same things I have said already… I can be like that sometimes, certain thoughts dwell on my mind and I write about them over and over so that either I can understand them better or so that I can remember just how happy I was years from now. Maybe it was because I felt vulnerable… more so than usual.
Sometimes I write and realize immediately after I posted that it’s just too imtimate for random strangers to read… particularly when there’s been tons of people finding ancient posts of mine and leaving ridiculous comments on them… dolts. I’m fairly open with how I feel… too much so sometimes, so you can imagine what something is like when I feel that no one else should read it, right?
I suppose the whole point of this is to say that lastnight, though technically this morning, Cole made me feel good about life. He gives me something to look forward to… and the motivation to do the things I need to do to get there.