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So, I’m still annoyed with Cole, simply because he hasn’t done anything to rectify the situation… I hadn’t actually talked to him since the night I ripped him a new one, though every morning he would send me a message on AIM, but I was conveniently not around… not particularly on purpose, but still, it was convenient.

So yesterday he paged me, I wasn’t sleeping yet, thankfully, so I find my way to the computer and say hi, he mentions something about spending the night with his boyfriend, blah blah, and then says he has to go, so I say alright, bye. It was a totally pointless waste of my time! How was that so damned important that he needed to page me?!

So yeah, back to my number one annoyance with him, conversations that are truly one-sided and last less than a couple of minutes. He knows that it pisses me off, so I can either assume that he’s doing it just to annoy me or he’s too stupid to just realize it. Or maybe he thinks that something is better than nothing, but I don’t agree; when the something is just so lousy that nothing is better.

So today, I’m still in bed, but not quite sleeping and he phones. For whatever reason his number didn’t show on caller ID, I answer, not knowing who it is, and pretty much the first thing is “Man, I’m soooo high” …yeah, good for you. Continued pointless conversation that makes little to no sense whatsoever, keeping in mind that my other major annoyance was that anytime I did have a conversation with him that lasted longer than five minutes he was too stoned to actually communicate with. He did manage to once again insult me by refering to my new tv as crap…

So he’s going on about this boyfriend of his, to which I really couldn’t possibly care less about, and then he conferences him in! Which is actually kind of funny because it obviously didn’t work out the way he planned it, because he discovers that the boyfriend was just lying to him! HAHAHAHA! Said he was going home, but didn’t, too funny. So, blah, blah, he says now he’s pissed at him.

I can really understand why he has trouble keeping a boyfriend for any period of time, especially considering I can barely stand him at this point. I think that job he has just turns him more and more shallow, it’s truly disgusting.

Of course, he’s going to eventually realize that I’m so disgusted with him… and he’ll again blame it on him having a boyfriend (and me being jealous) or me seeing someone… when in reality it all started far before that, he’ll just never accept it.

I’m just sick of it… him expecting me to be there for him at all times and not giving a damn when he’s doing alright… I deserve better.