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Major progress on the lounge! I have all of the painting done, with the exceptions of much needed touchups and painting the closet doors.

It turns out that I really didn’t move the bookcase far enough away from the wall to be able to properly paint that corner of the room, so that goes in the grouping of touchups I suppose.

I guess I’m really lazy when it comes to expending energy. I didn’t really want to move that stuff too far from where it was, when I couldn’t move it to where it would ultimately be, particularly when I haven’t a clue where it’s going to go, haha. Oh well, at least now the room isn’t overwhelmed with orange and brown.

There’s still a ton of work to be done, but the major mess of the overall painting is finished, unfortunately the scent of paint is just so overpowering down there.

I did run into a couple of problems, almost not enough of the ceiling colour, but enough to cover “sufficiently” even though there are a couple of patchy spots. The dark colour for the brick panelling ran out too soon, but thankfully the spots that aren’t really painted properly are low enough that they should be well hidden by the tv bench and tv, etc. At least I only had to buy a single gallon of paint for that whole room, heh, just for the huge side wall sections.

So, I’m still annoyed with Cole, simply because he hasn’t done anything to rectify the situation… I hadn’t actually talked to him since the night I ripped him a new one, though every morning he would send me a message on AIM, but I was conveniently not around… not particularly on purpose, but still, it was convenient.

So yesterday he paged me, I wasn’t sleeping yet, thankfully, so I find my way to the computer and say hi, he mentions something about spending the night with his boyfriend, blah blah, and then says he has to go, so I say alright, bye. It was a totally pointless waste of my time! How was that so damned important that he needed to page me?!

So yeah, back to my number one annoyance with him, conversations that are truly one-sided and last less than a couple of minutes. He knows that it pisses me off, so I can either assume that he’s doing it just to annoy me or he’s too stupid to just realize it. Or maybe he thinks that something is better than nothing, but I don’t agree; when the something is just so lousy that nothing is better.

So today, I’m still in bed, but not quite sleeping and he phones. For whatever reason his number didn’t show on caller ID, I answer, not knowing who it is, and pretty much the first thing is “Man, I’m soooo high” …yeah, good for you. Continued pointless conversation that makes little to no sense whatsoever, keeping in mind that my other major annoyance was that anytime I did have a conversation with him that lasted longer than five minutes he was too stoned to actually communicate with. He did manage to once again insult me by refering to my new tv as crap…

So he’s going on about this boyfriend of his, to which I really couldn’t possibly care less about, and then he conferences him in! Which is actually kind of funny because it obviously didn’t work out the way he planned it, because he discovers that the boyfriend was just lying to him! HAHAHAHA! Said he was going home, but didn’t, too funny. So, blah, blah, he says now he’s pissed at him.

I can really understand why he has trouble keeping a boyfriend for any period of time, especially considering I can barely stand him at this point. I think that job he has just turns him more and more shallow, it’s truly disgusting.

Of course, he’s going to eventually realize that I’m so disgusted with him… and he’ll again blame it on him having a boyfriend (and me being jealous) or me seeing someone… when in reality it all started far before that, he’ll just never accept it.

I’m just sick of it… him expecting me to be there for him at all times and not giving a damn when he’s doing alright… I deserve better.

I’ve fallen victim to incredibly bad planning, well… I’d say more like being too optimistic with the planning. Anyway, I get two main “paychecks” a month from credit card transactions, they had been fairly consistent, about the same amount each time or at least both sizeable enough that I didn’t need to worry. The 1st of the month “paycheck” was somewhat small in comparision to what it normally would be, but I didn’t really think about that, kind of just thought it to be a fluke. I suppose this means I’ve not really been paying attention to how things have been gradually moving to the middle of the month versus end/beginning. It’s also clear that I wasn’t paying attention to just how much money I was actually spending and the implications.

I’m sitting here staring at the screen looking at the amount the check will probably be near when it’s issued in a few days and I have this sort of panic happening. It’s only half of the last one I thought was fairly small… and then I look at my other accounts and that panic just grows a bit bigger. I’m really having a struggle with clients making their payments… which while usually quite annoying, not a terrible problem — it’s especially annoying right now.

I also usually follow a little rule I setup a while back, and I know I’ve talked about before, about keeping a minimum (as in very large) balance in my savings account at all times… I really got into a spiral over the last month or so… I did A LOT of spending, of a LOT of money, over a very short period of time. The only redeeming factor is that most everything I purchased is a permanent feature, versus blowing my money on food, alcohol, drugs, or… really all of those sorts of things that tend to get people into financial turmoil. This all brings me to the point that I totally broke that rule and essentially drained the account this month.

This isn’t a total disaster, but… it still really gets me worrying. This is my ‘lesson-learned’ that I really need to not do the “paycheck to paycheck” lifestyle by basically counting on money that I’m yet to receive to pay for my obligations. This is the first time in… hmmm, at least a year, that I have done that, and it really came back to bite me.

Granted, my obligations aren’t particularly due until toward the middle of the month, but they’re still technically due prior to that second “paycheck” actually arrives. I should be fine, this should work itself out, and if need be, I’ve established enough of a good history with some of my “creditors” that I should be able to push back the due date if I really and truly need to. The discomfort comes in because right now I just don’t have the money I really should have. And because so much of my income is dependent on others making their payments in a timely manner, and they’re certainly subject to the same sort of bad planning as I am, it brings another level of unease.

Oh well, some of those things I purchased were the sort that if I didn’t just do it [buy them], that I probably wouldn’t… and overall my quality of life has increased as a result, and considering how it tends to be fairly low on the average scale, I guess it’s all worth it. I still have a lot of…. errm, near regret in regards to the bed… in the sense that I should have waited, but then again… I’ve been waiting, and waiting… Anyone reading this journal for any period of time will know that I have complained countless times about how I needed a bigger bed… or at least a new one, and given the small difference in price (relatively) between a twin and a queen, it wouldn’t have made any sense in getting another twin. See, I’m still trying to justify the whole thing…

I guess it’s one of those facets of a sort of compulsive/obsessive/manic personality… I think I need to lock up the money in some sort of account I can’t instantly transfer money out of… the savings account thing was a lot easier when I didn’t have a visa debit card, lol.

I had the worst time trying to get to sleep, so I managed to stay up pretty late into the morning, but at least I was somewhat productive during that time period. I got a bunch of the crap moved out of the lounge area, either to a fiery death in the barrel or safe keeping in the shed. I did get some of the priming done, but moving the bookcase and chest of drawers on the other side of the room has proven to be too much for this mere mortal. I guess I’ll wait until tomorrow to get some assistance. In the meantime I need to start clearcoating the coffee table and finish up with the painting that I can actually do.

I sort of gave myself this deadline of finishing the room by the end of this weekend, but I’m not really sure that’s going to happen unless I totally bust my ass, which… well, is very much not my style.

Anyway, I finally awake from that required state of unconsciousness to discover a fairly large box sitting on my desk. It’s from Peak, they sent me 11 bottles of fragrance oils!! I had been corresponding with the company owner in regards to testing their fragrances in soap, but then I’d not heard anything back. So now I have plenty of choices to make soap with, they all smell lovely, and considering how well the other fragrances have performed in soap and candles I have high hopes for these also. I think firstly I’m going to make a test batch of the Sandalwood, that scent is just so amazingly good.

For now I must get back to being actually productive.