I’ve had enough.
It just isn’t normal to be left feeling horrible anytime you talk to someone in particular, or for that matter read a message from them.
I don’t know about anyone else, but when you’ve grown used to talking to someone on a daily basis and then you can’t, well, you want to talk with them… but after a while, you’ve grown used to them not being around and basically stop relying on them for anything important… well, I do at least. Eventually you just don’t want to talk to them, because you’ve missed out on their life and they’ve missed out on yours and to really have any connection you have to give all sorts of backstory… sometimes I just get to the point where I want to make sure they can’t talk to me, because if a significant period of time has passed, well, most likely they’re only getting in touch with me because they need my help with something. I help my friends, people I actually talk with on a regular basis, I don’t help people that “I used to talk with” …anymore.
I’d basically grown to loathe the idea of talking to him, anytime he would be around, which was pretty rare (and even more rare for it to be more than five minutes), he’d either be drunk, be stoned, or under the influence of some other substance. And, realistically, that’s all he really was capable of talking about too… which killed the idea of me actually wanting to talk about anything important to me; I’m not one for pointless conversation.
So, yeah, I started to avoid him, but who wouldn’t when that was what there was to deal with? Anytime there’d be any hint of real conversation he’d get aggressive and it would end in conflict…
He messaged me this morning, opening with a statement about how he didn’t know if he just coughed up mucus or cum… which I’m sure was supposed to be funny though it never quite got there. I’m in the middle of ironing out some details about selling my soap wholesale and also have a batch of soap in process, so I’m relatively busy and not particularly wanting to deal with whatever catastrophe he’s been cooking up lately. He gets bitchy with me, saying that I was complaining about not getting to talk with him, and now that he’s available I’m not talking. He has this way that he says things that makes you want to scratch out his eyes! I make the ‘mistake’ of being honest, and saying that since he’d not been around to talk with that I stopped caring about it… he calls me childish. I tell him that I’m busy and that I don’t have time for him being an asshole, that he can give that to somebody else.
I’ve had enough of him, instead of actually talking he signed off, I sent my letter from the 30th.