Being the Fool.
Lastnight I made a decision to just go on up to Carlisle… Winding my way through Chambersburg, stopping at the smoke shoppe, atm, and picking up a rose.
Now, I went into this knowing that he might not be at work, but still wanted it to be a surprise. If I was thinking, I’d have probably called to see if he was working tonight, but I didn’t particularly want to… turns out that he wasn’t there… brilliant.
So I called him, he didn’t answer, sent him a text message that indicated I had something for him, but again no response, I decided to just go home in defeat.
To double-whammy myself I decided to give Matthew a call while on the way home… amazingly enough he was there and answered, but was on the phone with someone else and said he’d call me back right after… sure, I believed that… he didn’t, no surprise.
Fast forward quite a few more hours and he’s back from wherever he was, I message him on aim and he immediately appologizes for not getting back in touch with me when I was in Carlisle and asks me what I had for him… I tell him, he says nothing, and goes to sleep…. I feel unbelievably stupid.
So at this point I’m leaning towards just being direct and asking what the hell is going on… Is he just clueless as to the appopriate way to respond or is he being purposefully rude, or is he just rude in general and I’ve never really picked up on it before? He’s getting benefit of doubt from me though, because he is younger and thus wouldn’t necessarily have developed the skills to really deal properly with others when it comes to this sort of thing.
So, I sleep on it… get to talk to him briefly again this afternoon… Firstly I ask him if he has a couple of minutes and he goes into explaining his schedule to tell me that he doesn’t. I ask him if he’d mind me stopping by work, he says that they’re going to be busy so I probably shouldn’t… I then mention that I did want to see him at least once over this winter ‘break’ …but that’s basically when he left and he never replied. Of course, he did say that he didn’t really have time to talk right away…
I look at this, trying to see it from a ‘third party pov’ and everything can go either way… *sigh* I guess I’ll keep playing along until I do get something definite out of it… I can’t help it, I really do like him… *shrug*