Making Excuses.
I still want to figure out what happened between me and JayPea, and for the most part that means I will probably need to go up there and see him. Now, I’ve had plenty of chances over the last few days, but I usually, and conveniently, end up seeing Patrick instead. I’m convinced that spending time with Patrick is a better use of that time anyway.
Of course, I did wake up yesterday with a sore throat, no doubts where this little illness I’ve picked up came from… but, sometimes feeling a little ill is a small price to pay. I feel better today, the sore throat seems to have gone away for the most part and I’m just a little stuffy, though the claritin D seems to have taken care of that too.
Since I am feeling better that sort of takes away my first reason to stay home tonight instead of driving up to Carlisle… the second is the fact it is a mere 19 degrees F outside right now… damn, that’s cold, especially since it had been in the fifties most of the week.
I don’t really know what to do. In some ways I’m conflicted about it all, but in others I just want to move ahead, and thus seeing JayPea feels like a step backward. There’s just something about him that makes me… well… he awoke something within me.